To my mother!!

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The day my mother told me she had cancer i felt like I died inside! No one to talk to I held my pain inside!.. I stayed distant from my mother cause I was too young to accept the pain I was witnessing, She sat me and my sister down at the table and said I love y'all but I don't think im gonna be here very long my stomach felt like I had swallowed a bottle of peroxide!.. Cause at that moment I was so weak inside looking my mother in her face wondering how the hell did you find strength to hold that pain inside!.. Telling us to are face like it was a detective staring me in the face like boy your gonna die inside! Mother your so strong cause your son damn sure couldn't carry on watching your hair go from down your backside hitting your waist to you going completely bald!..As if you were a skeleton deteriorating starting from your head and when you was at your hospital bed I never could get close to you cause I never wanted to break down in tears, In front of you but every nite I dropped to my knees and prayed for you and every day I layed in your bed at home it was like I was laying In a bed full of weave!.. Cause your hair was every were like I was sleeping in a barber chair my heart raced for months felt like I was the patient taking kemo!.. BUT you battled it thru you stayed strong through it all and you still stayed on mywhen ever you came home!.. And the lord brought you back to life I guess by me being on my knees and praying every nite, The lord answered my screams and wiped away my tears and said stay strong for your mother cause shes really holding on!.. So a casket you never hit funeral arrangements never was done!.. I'm just so damn thankful I still have you and your still here cause life with out you would be like a flower with out the sun!.. So I guess all this was a wake up call To always respect my mother even when your wrong cause you only get one mother that will always stand strong!!.. God put you through death just to bring you back to life!.. And when I sit and wonder I just say damn your one helluva MOTHER WITH THE STRENGTH OF A WHOLE ZOO GOD BLESSED YOU FOR A REASON AND THAT IS THE HONEST TO GOD TRUTH!!