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Raised to respect
Lack thereof,
Resorted in chaos.
Fists flaring from a parent
Mothers less caring,
Than perceived
From the womb
To the world
Taught without ease.
There were never excuses
For the abuse
Given.
I was told to forgive him
Why?
Just a young girl
Forced to fall asleep
After being beat.
That feeling of defeat brought deceit
It'd be too difficult
For one to comprehend
What reckless temperaments
Filled my head
Too many days filled with dread
Wondering what would happen next
There was nothing I could take back for all The grief I faced in the past
At the hands of my own dad
As time went on
Wedges were put in place
To replace conversation
I grew a hesitation
To love such a misshapen relation
Who could blame me?
My house was not a home at the time
I had no voice-
All that he did
Was a result of his hatred-
He had no remorse in his heart
It'd be weak of me to sit and weep
For the past
That's not why I speak of it
Believe this-
There relies no weakness in these teaches
For family I make no exceptions
Now I use my words as weapons
As for you,
There's no justifying why
You did what you did
Playing the part in public
But behind closed doors
Abusing 3 kids!
I reflect now on all the anger I allowed to Build up
Knowing that you gave me no reasons to Love
I could have chosen to be just as insensitive To my needs
But I grew from that pattern
and proved that I could be an individual!
Regardless of my upbringing-
These days,
Forgetting what happened
Becomes a trend-
While you did attend
Every childhood event
It never meant
That it gave u the right;-
to wake us up
in the middle of the night,
just to lay your hands on
3 Children;
too young to put up a Fight!
My Heart was never light;
My Hatred REACHED untouchable heights!
Years pass.
Have i moved past;
The times that u
HARRASSED!
my Being ! ?
Call it me :
"Wearing a chip on my shoulder”
But I'm not
“making a scene.
And
Now that I'm older,
I'm able to lean!
where I wish
and
so BE it;
If I NEVER hear
the END . . .
0F THIS~
Written by: Desir'ee Chavez
& Destiny Chavez
