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Inspired by EE Cummings, "It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are".

I am the only one who knows my story...

Strength comes from my struggling 

With so many ups and downs, seems to be more downs then ups

Downs that lingered due to loss in my ability to trust

Looking back I did not see success, was unable to move forward, my mind cemented in a bowl of pity  filled with regrets

My comfort lingered in familiar places the doorways of pridefulness, selfishness, foolishness,self sabotage, hurt, fear and pride

Lacking trust in my ability to  design my own canvas 

Struggling with hauling the weight of my past

Often asking myself what do I want

In the midst of uncertainty struggling to keep God up front

Struggling is my strength, my testimony 

Struggling to handle the complexities required to maintain healthy responsibilities and boundaries 

Struggling to rid the noise in order to hear 

Just a single word, one word from God

Now that I'm still the noise has silenced

Enabling me to hear that still quiet voice 

It speaks of the worthiness of the cross

Implying with God I should willingly place my trust

Occasionally, missing out on what's intended as an opportunity

Now if opportunities are meant for me they'll be intentionally;

Yet because of all that I've had to endure,

I see rays of hope shining  toward a better future.

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