Watching and Waiting

never in my life...

have I taken risks too afraid to take a chance...

you never know what's at the end of tunnel...

too afraid of the end to even begin to travel...

I don't want to lose my balance...

because I decided to live freely, careless...

what if I try that one thing...

that I always said I would never consider...

I live in a cage...

Always stuck in one place...

people don't get why I hold back...

always trying to avoid the "bad"...

I have been a good girl...

Always the perfect little angel...

Don't confuse my halo with sunlight...

It's always been there and fits just right...

Is this the right way to live...

wrapped up never to be found or looked at...

the perfect way to avoid any sort of attention...

yes this is perfection...

So I should live for you...?

Is this what he had planned for me...?

I need to ask for your permission...

oh, is that what is meant by the scriptures...?

You don't live in hopes that I accept you...

So do not come to me and ask that I beg you...

I deserve every little bit as much as you do...

Let me teach you a lesson...

I am me, and you are you...

that is the truth...

may be that will end the confusion...

if not don't come back again...

I would not see you...

If I knew I could avoid it...

I hope when you see my face...

You are reminded of this day...

Remember the saying if you have nothing nice to say...

Yeah that really never changes...

I live in a world of happiness and pleasure...

take away your darkness and miserable...

you don't like my poses...

those are just photos...

I don't like your coldness...

hope to see you sink into that beautiful oblivion...

watching and waiting...