My Happy Place

Where is happiness?

Is it between a rock and a hard place?

Can't be because that's where I'm at

And unfortunately I'm no where near happy

Not even close

No matter how far I extend my reach

I just can't seem to feel it

Out of sight out of mind

I can't see it so I never think happy thoughts

Blind to positivity numb to satisfaction

Deaf to words of encouragement

All I think see and feel is negativity

I don't want to be this way

Programmed for self destruction

Where are you happiness?

Are you in the form of a friend?

Are you in the form a lover?

Are you in the form of my faith?

Because you aren't in the form of a drug

Or a liquor bottle

Or a one night stand

Happiness reminds me of some foreign land

That I need a passport to get into

But I can't afford it because I've given all I got

In an attempt to get there