Anxiety

Chest caving in All of this stress that I'm breathing in Got me surprised that I'm breathing still Fighting the urge to have a drink and a sleeping pill Never suicidal But fighting hard for survival Got a purpose to live for But the more that I live, seems like I got too much to die for I stay hyped up for a reason Cause different problems come with every season Had to stop daydreaming and realize That the fairytale story in the sky..... Don't exist unless you get high The room is spinning again, heart beating so fast Feels like I'll never see the light again My body drugless, but I feel the pain in my system Side effects of a broken fam, broken hope and low income But still I say I'm blessed Cause I've seen some pretty moments Still got life in my body and only a short list of regrets I just anticipate what's coming up I'm trying everything I can think of to progress but it's never enough Money's always an issue They say more money more problems..... I find that hard to believe compared to all the broke that I been through Mental health at stake Sanity driven off the deep end with every breathe that I take But the brilliant ideas in my mind need a way to escape A breakthrough to break through this prison that my fear creates I just want my smile back To feel happy and successful To feel capable like I did awhile back I just want my time back To correct some things and change my mind before it's too late and I'm thrown off track Chest caving in Hyperventilating, losing control again This out of body experience got me begging to feel my being again Feel like I'm losing my soul when I'm straining to see the light again This feeling visits me more often than my peace of mind I feel anxiety taking over again To be continued......