vomit

iam just not ready 
not ready to fully admit it to myself that i love you 
so i wont
because i know i would never love you the way you deserve 
so i try not to give you too much of time
i will act real nonchalant whenever you come around
whenever you want to meet up ill just say i am busy
i know i am not right for you so i wont say i love you, even if i do