Too little too late (letting go)

I hate with a passion; one conjured down in the pit if my stomach,but love with a fury,calming yet psychotic, I gots to get that in check. My mind is numb to the madness,it's sad yes, I put u before myself and called it "practicing patience". To no avail, still I just wasn't able, to move on in a life with u wen I felt ya loyalty to me wasn't tru. We took vows despite all the fights,tears and begging u to show me and clear up that our family was first. I got ignored and pushed away, and avoiding the conflict only quenched their thirst. A whole year plus I waited, yelled, damn near going crazy which caused us both alot of stress, I thought that the bond we had was greater than anything, hell we'll withstand any test. In the end I was proved wrong it wasn't that strong. It and our foundation broke n crumbled, along with my mind. My spirit ripped from my soul, confidence shot I felt so low. Now as I pick up the pieces of my shattered heart,put my life back on track and get a fresh start. I have to remove u from my life so I can struggle and strive, to rebuild a better me for the sake of our daughter's lives. I'm gonna make on promise to u and the difference is I'm gonna keep it, once I'm gone my love is gone and you'll no longer be my weakness. I won't back track, no sir, I'm only looking forward, U made YOUR choice and it's clear as day, there's nothing to say and no reason to stay I throw my dueces with my head up high ME and MY KIDS r now my only focus..