Chain Reaction

She says she loves me
but shes tired...
tired of missing me
not that im not home, but when i am im so distant shes second guesses kissing me
and still she says she loves me

but she's confused...
confused about where I want to be
and why i still think it's cool to leave at 12noon
then don't come in until the next day at 3
and she still says she loves me

but shes sick..
she's sick of trying to figure out who i am
and why she always have to provide a plan
because i get mad when she asks;
when she's only giving me a chance to be a man
yet still she says she loves me

but i dont what love is...
my momma was young and
still clubbin and
my father had an infatuation with
the streets and drugs
so alot of nights i missed getting to eat
along with kisses hugs
and I want to love her...

but the cold deceptions in my life
teaches me not to trust her
my biggest fear is me coming back and shes not there
and i know i should fight and try to keep her
but instead i act like i dont need her
but she then tells me she love me

and i should be honest with her and tell her
you made a mistake again, trusting a man
but instead..
i give her the temporary satisfaction of i few i love yous
and it will never happen again..

and after so long of me tearing her apart
while she always played her part
another man is after her heart
i dont know to fight or to make this right
but thats going to be kind of hard
because the house was empty, when i got home last night
too late.....