WHY DO I FEEL THIS PAIN!!

Why do I feel this pain is it cause I grew up in vain! At times it just feel like nothing has change. Memories of my past would give a old man a heart attack!.. Do to the life or death situations that I was forced to face. Living in a society that's so cold even the babies is living and growing in a nitemare. Violence on every corner cause the poison has already entered a society that's just full of lost souls! Even the lord is just looking down and watching in disgrace. Because the system is designed to keep down the innocents! Why do I feel this pain!! Is it just that I can feel my ancestors spirits knowing that they were beat and tortured babies being rape and molested and decapitated screaming for dear life! All they was trying to do is just escape the madness Scared running destined to be free and live a normal life! But instead they was captured and hung begging for mercy, But the devil wasn't hearing it cause there hearts were colder then a killer facing life! And they say times have changed but really that's just a damn lie! And they wonder why we crazy cause my damn history is just full of ***ing misery!! So don't ask me why I'm standing tall and looking you in the eye!! Wishing a mutha***er would pull out a whip, And say negro get to swinging your pick or you will be force to die!! Cause the way I'm feeling rite now not even a army can hold me bck from stomping your head till theres just nothing but red, and after I'm done you will be the one on the floor dead!..How dare you tell me to forget my history and your the main reason my culture is just full of misery!!