my mind and soul

At times I have my own party!.. And no ones invited I sit and remanice as if I was kicking it with a old friend!.. I Cook a good meal I listen to oldies!.. I dance by my self!.. I talk to the lord as if we were on a date!.. I enjoy my nite as if I was having a organisms for a long period of time!.. I think about my love ones as if I was on my way to see them!. I cry to myself as if I was at a love one funeral!.. Cause of the battle I fought just to be standing tall today!..Seeing humans killing there life as if they were suicidal, death every day you would thought we were living in a grave yard life and death situations felt like every day there was a gun to my face and when the sun went down it was blood shed every nite felt like it was a bunch of vampires on a loose hunting down humans at nite!..And its defiantly gonna take more then a holy cross and light to take them out!.. junkies looking like dogs at the mouth cause of the drugs they were doing was drying them out!.. Babies is growing up confused cause there's no more good role models around but just a bunch rap music that continues to come out no educational channels cause the drama channels then sold them out just one devilish world with a flame lit that just haven't went out!!