Feelings Of The Day

I am standind still though every thing else is moving fast around me, negativity surrounds me, me being optimistic does'nt help in reality I am struck, stuck with myself, the only one to blame lost in this realm thats got us insane, at times I wish I was'nt so vain, tell me why I am so estranged, am I destined to go through changes with so much pain, unbearable, a wreck, my life a shame, they say God chastises those he love the most, hoping he is not just a fabricated ghost, no one else is pulling these strings, I am the only one who knows my future in things, so I take these breaths and think with my mind, am I different or left behind, my dreams are clues that I cant piece together the perils is difficult the creator is clever, hidden meanings in the signs and symbols around me, helps me keep in mind my faults and boundaries,