An Apology

To all who are let down, thought I was renown to be great, what a fake I am, and you misjudge, selling dreams for who I was , I hope you dont hold a grudge, I am in a place where I dont feel no love, scared to call on the one above, whoo knows my heart, but will I ever change, I tell them yaeh , though it's clear  I am much estranged, wanting in my possession all that the flesh desires, great sins that I dont think will retire, asking for more than life can give asking why do I choose this path to live am I a victim of sociey or a victim of what lies in me, to my mother who knows me best, she tells me only in time I will recieve success, with these words I get quite steamed, I want it now and that's my dream to my love who stays by my side, she sees my evil but never turns and hide for her I often down my pride maybe I need reverse phsycology, it's to God my mom and my love to whom I owe this apology,