F.M.L (Forgive Me Love…I’m Sorry)

 I should have listened to you..when you told me that I wasn't ready.

I just wanted to rebel

And I hate myself for it.

Things were finally looking up, I had someone and they had me.

Where there was chaos...there was peace.

Peace...my heart yearns for peace.

My soul is crying for understanding...yet my mind cannot grasp it.

Forgive me love...had I known what I know now...

I would have listened.

There's no reason to cry out and say sorry...yet I still do.

I am sorry for being selfish...I am sorry for walking away from you...I am sorry for crushing your dreams...I am sorry for breaking your heart

Things that I wish that I could say, things that I wish that I could do.

Is something that seems impossible now, that love has turned it's back on me.

If this is my confession then allow my words to flow out of my mind with ease.

Let it glide across the tops of the tallest of tallest of threes, rain down and bury itself into the earth spoiling it as it spread like lava on overused pavement.

Allow me to decompose so I can become fertilizer...and regroup...and become someone new.

Maybe then I will be able to return

Maybe love will not know who I am..

Maybe then I will be forgiven...for hurting love as bad as I did.

I'm sorry.

Even after the years have passed I will still continue to ask for forgiveness.

I will still try to capture you.

I will still try to win back your heart.

One day I thought that you were going to catch my tears but still you stood far...and watch them fall..

Silently...calmly...numb to the realization that in the end.

It would be you who would have won the war.

As I take my final breaths...

My last and final beats...

I whisper out...that I am sorry...

And that I will always love you....