From pain to love

I hide my pain with a smile mostly what I have done since a child was always told not to speak of what truly was bothering me Beside who would believe me that's what was put in my head from the time it began for years I thought it was okay to take abuse from a man that was love to me, hell it stayed in my family I always felt love started in the family, but I never felt love it hurt, hurt to the point of me always feeling sad I have up for three years prayed to my God and put it in his hand I said what ever you see fit for me send it to me once daddy of feeling like it will never happen I ran into you and the sky got brighter on a rainy day smiling while you tried to find the words to say You were my star that came from the sky at night, to kiss me to assure me everything would be alright That's why still this day I thankful for the pain, without the pain I would know how to respect your love....