The Gift God Gave Wasted

I sit quietly in a ruined state, wanting to do a straight 360 or is it too late, not leaving everything up to chance untrusting of fate, in Good I trust , I can't see faith, guess I am going to have to learn to , they say those that's undecided will burn too, rigid figure holding my crown, I was on a high I couldn't come down, trying to succeed at being world renown, I look in the mirror look at me now, segregation, so much isolation, feel like it's suffocation, shattered dreams, future becoming vague, don't see what I could possibly accomplish at this age, doors made of molten steel, no fairy tale this is so real, my coat of arms has been defaced missing it's shield, partial walls and floors this time what a waste, the city that I am from is terrible, still there is sensuous calm and beauty, you got to be careful, as darkness falls through the fragrant streets, an ageless night it's really a sight no one ever sleeps, despair rises, nothing supervises the innocent, violence because we are indigent,