No Meaning, No Understanding

Cant get it and no one's able to tell me, got to live it, no one else knows and that;s why they fail me, hail me king of sorrow, salute me or shoot me vague is my tomorrow, a star rose over the horizon, you missed my ascent but you are there for my fall, but I will rise again, alive I guess that's the prize, I shouldn't have escaped with my life praying for my demise, I wont expire, I breathe fire, want to inspirem hail me, heaven can't handle a ni**a  soul of a God mind so complex body is hard heartless heart of steel, destined to be great focus running on sheer will, closed in the world don't seem as big closed men got to have your mind open too see what they hide in plain sight, Ima give thema riugh fight until they take over my light with darkness, situation of desperation jail and hell is what I am  facing not knowing I done seen both my close and personal steaming but never chancing life has no meaning and no understanding,