Shadows Drift

Why am I dying to live if I am living to die, grew up screwed up no one gave a f**k I was cued up blew up seen some dollars everyone acted like they cared and they wanted to follow, lost it all rock bottom yeah it's hard to swallow, and everyday I wake I say it will get better with tommorrow, entourage gone and I don't care about home, wanna raise my daughters even if I have to alone, can't do it on my own, got anotheron the way I wanna see him full grown, what am I trying to see when there is nothing in sight, looking at the future with no vision is futile, worries on your mind is a good boost in morale, to me despair and fear is not only useful to a child it can be useful for a while, what am I trying to give and no one give me a try, not understanding the shoes you can't fit or walk in you get out what you put in I didn't make this world I was brought in why am I fighting to live if I am living to fight can't fight with yourself outcome and circumstances will be disasterous, I am so bastardous, it;s a battle within and it has to begin one of us got to end so one of us can win the ego from the conscience,