The Heart's Deception

is this just another one of of my ramblings?

no, it doesn't seem to be from where i'm standing

i'm just looking for answer and an understanding of the concepts of trust and affection

but i can barely seem to get your attention

and when i try to be angry at you, i can't focus because i'm flustered by your complexion

i'm not scared of dieing nor am i scared of being killed

i've accepted the fact that if my heart gets another crack in it my blood will be spilled

i act like my tolerance for pain is at its maximum

i've told myself so many lies that my thought process is becoming irrational

bad situations have made me more complacent

your silence has led me to speak

i barely mean anything to you, but you mean so much to me

you know my problems because i pour my heart out in these poems

feelings are seeds and it's difficult for me to grow them, 

because the light in my heart is continually dimming

and the rain of my brainstorms have become acidic

my gray cloud continues to expand and i can't seem to get rid of it

hurt and pain should only be tolerated to an extent

as i my stress increases so does my need to vent

you went from being a shining light in my life

to being a burden on my mind

you went from deserving my undivided attention,

to being just another waste of time

the crazy thing is that giving up on you is inconceivable

i know that next time i see you i'll show nothing but love even if it's unreasonable

~PEACE

@PoeticallyGifted