I Do Not Know

I wish that time could just freeze for a moment

Would it be wrong if I asked, if I could saver this moment…just a little longer?

I asked for this but I did not ask for only half of you.

I worked long and hard to obtain what I have earned but now I am beginning to see that I have lost what was meant to be the happy ending…

Words cannot describe the depth of my loneliness..

Photos cannot capture this emptiness..

Had I known that I had already lost you

I do not know if I would have even looked for you.

Where did you go?

Why can’t I feel your touch?

That connection…your warmth…where did it all go?

We are like strangers sitting in a small room…with a lot of empty space.

So many questions…but not enough answers… neither one of us wanting to ask

I take the blame for this… this here was my fault.

And my tears just cannot fix this moment.

I have no words that are strong enough to make a connection.

If I stayed and lived this one moment forever, I know that I would miss out on something special.

And if I press play I know that one-day will come when we will say our good-byes…and I will stand and smile, and laugh till you disappear into the crowd.

This is when reality would set in…

This is when I would have to stand on my own two feet.

This is when I would cry…uncontrollability

Because it would be me who would have missed out on something special.

And I do not know if my heart would be able to take it.