Roller Coaster Ride

As I lay and reminisce
on all of the promises you
made I begin to think of 
the times we would just sit 
up and talk all day

I feel loved one minute 
and the next i don't
I used to feel loved
all of the time but

now i'm left wondering 
where did all of the love go?
My heart is heavy it doesn't 
understand how one minute

you can be so loving 
and then just transform into a brand
new man 

I watched the change happen right before
my eyes I pleaded with you
but you never heard my cries

The pain I feel keeps me
up at night my mind races
struggling to remember
what true happiness feels like

Deep down I want to believe 
you love me but how can I
when your actions and words don't match

Now i'm wishing I could erase
those same feelings I
tried so hard not to catch

The pain grows more and 
more everyday
you ask what's wrong but I
can never think of the right 
words to say

Day by day I watch 
Us grow more distant 
I want to bring it up
But I really don't think you'll listen

I love you 
so that's why
I've been holding on

And i'll continue
To ride this roller coaster
Just as long as I 
know you're
down to ride along

I'm nobody's fool
So if you're not
Please let me know
And if that's the case then
I have no choice but to let you go