the wolf that died yesterday (was me)

I twisted my hair I smile less I think more  there is no telling what's in store for my future maybe death is lurking around the corner maybe success is going to move next door where there's a house va maybe I'll consult with God to determine what my next move should be maybe I'll walk to the Devils house and ask him to please leave me alone I started to go on a search for my feelings and emotions but I gave up because I couldn't find any left yesterday someone stabbed me directly in the heart but I was unable to feel it that should show you how numb I've become today I walked with my head down as if I was waiting on a portal to open up beneath me I have about two sold voices in my head as I'm writing this one is telling me to just be alone don't become one with the world but become one with my inner self and find the peace that I've been searching for the other voice is telling me to let every single thing go don't focus on anything just sucesseding and taking care of my daughter I wish I had a twin because he'd  grab me by the colour and shake some sense in to me like I asked for change