Broken

You will never get the chance to see my tears fall

The breaking of my heart will not once ring within your ears in this lifetime

Love and remorse will not be waiting at the end of the tunnel when you walk back into the light

And my heart…my heart will one day learn what love really is.

I yearn for your acceptance like an addict yearns for their next fix.

Here I am lying next to you, yet so far away from your heart

This is the love that we have created.

A world of emptiness, and uncertainty

Of ying and yang

You assume that things are good, that our love is unbreakable.

I am here, catering to your every need.

Cooking, washing, smiling, and laughing; I am able to do all things.

But get access to your heart

Just talk, work together, hope, and pray.

The imprints of my prayers rest relaxingly upon my chest.

A vision of me running towards you and finding nothing in the end is what scares me the most.

Promises, upon promises are slowly starting to fade away right before my eyes.

And like a mime I say nothing, I just sit and stare like a portrait on the wall.  

Crying deep within, far away from open ears.

But you will never hear them…no one will

You will never experience the real depth of my love.

I have given my best just to have it pushed off to the side.

My heart has been toyed with; it is still waiting for you.

You walked away from the table before I had the chance to talk you back.

Where did you go?

Are you anywhere close?

By the time that you realize that I am gone, it is going to be too late for you to start missing me.

My tears will have dried up

I will have loved you and hated you and forgiven you and moved right on passed you

Never looking back

Never expecting an apology…