my appearance

THROUGH THE MAGAZINES I LOOK
LIKE I'M READING THROUGH A BOOK
FOCUSING ON THE PICTURES OF THE GOOD CURVY
FIGURES OF WOMEN
SOMETIMES I WANT TO BE THEM
AS I GLAZE IN THE MIRROR I HAVE FLASHBACKS MEMORIES
OF WHAT EVERYBODY IS SAYING ABOUT ME
IT HURTS
THEY NOT TRYING TO SEE WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT IS THE
PEOPLE THAT SAID THEY LOVED ME MADE ME FEEL HAPPY
I HATE "MY APPEARANCE"
TIRED OF THE COMMENTS
EVERYNIGHT I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP
I'M AFRAID TO DATE GUYS THEY JUST GOING TO JUDGE ME
FEEL ALONE LIKE I'M THE ONLY PERSON IN MY MOM AND GUYS
EYES
IN THE WORLD EVERYBODY THINK THEY CAN JOKE AROUND
TEASE ME ABOUT MY BODY
AND BE HAPPY WITH THEMSELVES
AND NOT KNOW OR CARE ABOUT WHAT IT'S DOING TO ME
I WANT TO JUST STUFF MYSELF WITH FOOD SO MUCH I DON'T
KNOW WHAT TO DO
TAKE A PILL PASS OUT NOBODY WILL NOTICE WHY NOTICE NOW?
MY SOUL IS EMPTY
I CAN'T TAKE NO MORE PAIN NO MORE SHOT TO THE HEART
I JUST WANT A GUY AN INDIVIDUAL TO LOVE ME AND MY BODY
I CAN'T CHANGE MY BODY OVERNIGHT
PEOPLE THINK I CAN
THEY NEVER UNDERSTAND
I HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER
AND NOW THEY TOOK MY LAST INCH OF HAPPINESS
WHY CAN'T I JUST JUMP OUT OF THIS HORRIBLE LIFE
AND NEVER COME BACK
NO FRIENDS SEEING ME NO REAL MAN
OVERLOOKING MY BODY
THE PETITE SKINNY BODY AND SEEING THE POWERFUL YET WEAK EMPTY LOST SOUL THAT FIGHTS BACK IN ME
IF I BE BIG THE NEGATIVE COMMENTS WON'T CHANGE
OH, WELL WHAT A SHAME!