Wrong Or Right?

How can something so bad, feel so good? Or is it not bad at all & really that good? But I just misunderstood? If I could turn back the hands of times with this, really...I don't know if I would... I'm thinking maybe I shouldn't put my all into it this time...then again, maybe I should. At times I feel like I took a bite out of a forbidden fruit like Eve...& maybe I'm destined for trouble & pain..other times I feel like a million bucks kuz IM tha QUEEN & I reign... How can happiness make u feel confused? A smile is a helluva lot better then being used & abused...

So why am I questioning my smile? As long as it's there it's a good thing right? Or is that I'm in denial? I love the feeling it brings so I hope it stays around a while...Did something so bad really make me feel so good? If It's wrong I don't think I wanna be right.....kuz whatever this feelin inside of me is makin me wanna put up a fight...