Propelled growth

This place here is not where I belong. This spot right here I surly can't sit long
The words the say. The games they play.
Got me some type of all confused.
Contentment must not lye here. 
Because I'm falling behind and still being used.
But I'm stuck in this vortex of life and feelings
Caught in the continuim  of reality and emotions
In the blink of an eye fact becomes fiction 
A second of solice when I believe I'm not on my own
Resting in the comfort of a touch and intrest
The exhilaration to be consumed and dissected.
 a need to be wanted.
But i can't stay here. Here is not where I belong
There is no peace Im tormented and confused
Here Contenment must not lye.
This place  there is no handle
And I desperatly need a grip
In this place my light is candle
Dimmed by a constand negative drip
One day the light will be no more
and I won't be able to see that door
I just can't stay here, here is not were I belong
A choice must be made. Should I go or should I stay
Stay and a soul drifts a way, Go to an unkown day
Stay and my bed made, Go just walk away
Stay with the unsettling bliss of contentment of disappointments known
Go and just go to a knew wiser day
I will not stay here.