I Have No Words

They fail me, the perfect combinations of consonants and vowels. Without them I am rendered incapable of conveying all that I think and feel. How do I recapture the mastery of my verbal arsenal? The arsenal that I willingly surrendered to you without  battle.  I have no words that would invite you into an understanding of what you do to me. How you cause my body to shudder at the mere thought of you. Trying desperately to maintain my composure in your presence. I have no words, there is only inadequacy. I breathe you into my being and exhale a desire that transforms immediately into need. I have no words that paint the disdain I feel at my weakness for you. Possessing the knowledge that you may indeed be the him of my dreams. Perfection would be a word I might use, but it would fail miserably. What secret successively ordered letters could describe and explain all? I have no words that would usher peace into the emotional turmoil you have wrought upon my sensibilities. You are my every other thought. My waking dreams all include you. I have no words to begin to explain how you commanded me into my rightful position. You, I know, would and will keep me safe. I no longer twist in the wind. Now I am shielded by the only man who makes me feel safe. I have no words that can contend with the reality that I now possess a "new normal". My normal is always you!!!