The reset

How do I get past this point.. Stuck like a truck in the mud.. I'd lie for you.. Not quit die for you but you control the forces that operate those thoughts and actions... In time... What's the reason for placing your transmission in reverse? No words, no text and no contact.. Restricted from the thing that makes me happy.. I see you and I'm lit, you see me and find an alternate route.. It's not the fact that it's happening, it's the fact of not knowing why it's happening.. I started to smoke a black but realized your doing enough damage to me already.. No need to add to the destruction of me... Shiiiiiiit.. I spark one anyone.. As I let the wine filled Middleton touch my lungs I exhale deeply.. Blowing out everything I held for you.. As easy as i let you in it's even easier to let you out.. I watch everything I had for you blow away in the wind.. No need to explain...no need for any other convo's.. I put the rest of my black and mild out and watch the flame slowly fade.. And just like that everything is as it once was.