What Kind of is That

I'm black 
Then why you talk like that and your name spelt like that X A V I
I guess you're  mixed or some
So I can't be black because my name has alphabets and I speak professional? And you think my hair bi racial, and now the conversation is about how I may be international? Like Samoan or sumtin
How are we rooted then?
Never professional enough for them and too professional for them
So when you fall between you're a mix of both of them and deemed as the most acceptable unacceptable person on the earth 
Sometimes neither will like you
My my but I can't be black
I can use Ebonics 
And tell a I'll beat theyout of the same mouth I will let them know their miseducation about experiencing emancipation in this nation is not included in textbook education 
Oh but I cannot be black because I'm professional and all that 
I can't be black
What kind of is that
If I talk about black lives matter and say we should matter to each othekr first, then I'm flirting with idea of being white supremacist because I don't believe all the police are racist
And we racist to someone like me, living my life professionally but I came from the projects too, and I know my root, not saying you have to come from projects to have credits in being black but it makes it easier to be accepted so they won't think I'm too good, so I used that statement as proxy along with 
My grandmother grew up on a farm and I'll eat pig butt and skin without a problem, but because I'm light skinned I'm bougie? Too much for men
I'm black and you say I'm not, what kind of is that