In My Feelings

No I dont want to talk

I will turn my phone off

Confused about how to feel

Conflicted about how to deal 

Never been in this position

All I ever wanted was a smooth transition

Now I am at a loss for words

Yea that is a first

Wear my heart on my sleeve, always exposed

But my heart has to bleed, and I dont want anyone to know

or anyone to see

My vulnerability

Take my kindness for weakness

the two are contradictory

I am kind, never weak

Theres havoc inside of me 

madness as we speak

and it it brings me to me knees...

You will never see.