Comfortable

All my life things haven't been right.
Constantly going in circles when it comes to my love life.
Always looking for a man to come and save me.
Yet each time I feel I'm found I'm always giving up my baby.
Blinded by the thought that their love for me is real .
In the end my self esteem and ability to love is slowly killed .
Only sticking around because without them who will love me .
Besides they always said they'd put no other female above me.
Only to realize that I'm not so special if I'm not the only one .
Because he loves them too and calls them boo and like that the damage has been done. 
But you're the bad guy because in the end you shouldn't have went through his phone .
Because he's gonna do what he pleases but make you feel needed and you'll accept it because you hate being alone.
He's never wrong. 
Now you're left broken from the words you've left unspoken but you know there's no reason to express them.
Suffering more from your insecurities because you know you're not as attractive as them.
Always hoping for the best but you know it can only get worse.
And since you won't accept the signs you'll only continue to get hurt.
Growing up without either parent really ***s you up.
Because you don't do nothing but go through life constantly looking for love.
Always showing and giving love to those who don't even know what it looks like.
But if you knew too you wouldn't catch yourself crying at night.
From loving people who in the end don't even love you the same.
And when it's all said and done you'll be the only one who feels pain. 
Then the cycle will only repeat itself again.