Four Muted Walls

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I didn't kiss him for you My intentions were not to break through his exoskeleton and penetrate a heart that I never knew was there. But now I know This secret dies with me Beyond these four muted walls all that has occured or could have occured will not ever be spoken nor acknowledged in this world or the next And although Erykah Badu was promising to greet someone in her next lifetime He and I will only be seen as strangers without any recognition of what had previously occured. See this is beyond my level of understanding. I keep him at a far to prevent our paths from crossing I see no face and choose to not remember his name to prevent myself from labeling a stranger. From imprinting yet another character into my mental I'd rather die blindly then to pretend to acknowledge any form of sign of game that may very well be played with my heart. These cards that had been delt to me 31 years ago gave me the opportunity to not allow anyone else from entering a lifestyle that I still refuse to allow to engulf me This man that I am That still stands before me as a reflection of what I know that I do not want to be Refuses to subcome to the "typical" scenario or the norm Which is so foreign that I am unable to see beyond that horizon that I continue to walk away from And yet as you continuously try to place me into this box into this fictional reality that you have conjured up while rolling your blunt and sipping on your Henny I still continue to stand by my morals And just simply say that no...this was not done for you. I am not here to prove who was right or wrong I was not there to put anyone on blast or try to take my shot into the unknown The alcohol never touched my tongue and the thc was never even apart of my world at that time. I unfortunately was just caught up in an unfortunate circumstance No was much more diluted than potent And nobody seemed to care what was happening as long as it remained behind those closed doors. With the muted walls That never spoke...and pretended to never see.