HIM

HIM

 

I don’t know where to start

Or how to begin

This tends to always happen

When I’m talking about….

HIM

He was so fine

As time

Standing still at midnight

A mind’s ease

Like a cool breeze

Oh, how I had long to hold him tight

This is spontaneously episodic

But before me stood

The complete package deal

And for real

I bought it

He hadn’t even touched me yet

Already my panties was wet

See, I was in love

As if love had anything to do with this

Desires to such his big lips

Imagining him riding high on my widened hips

Oh, how I wished

To kiss his big

Black

Thickness….

 

Of course there’d be some time pass

Before opening my thighs

But I could not dismiss

This being God answered prayer

I dare not let this cup pass me by

So, there we were

In the Garden of Eden

Naked and not ashamed

I couldn’t blame God

Cuz’ damn….

All I kept saying was

MAN oh, MAN…

Just looking so fine

As he took his time

His manly, yet gentle ways

My body behaved

To his perfect display of oral stimulation

He kissed

Both pair of my lips without any hesitation

Before his penetration

He did stroke my body so

With caresses portraying secrecy

The kind kept that only between lovers

Should know how to do that

In fact

I had never seen

The many things he did to me

Set the cage bird free to sing royal praise

This god that laid me down

I confessed my sins to HIM

Gave HIM my royal crown

See, I was in love

As if love had anything to do with this

He was a black beautifulness

I had never had before

Without a care

I was prepared to use

EVERY condom I had stored

In my nightstand drawer

But….

As I reached to put the condom on

He started to sing a different song…

“Aw baby-

We don’t need anything between us

See, with latex

That makes this just SEX

But

Without that glove

I

You

We

Experience all our Black Love

This is about us

Not lust

About you…

About me…

About the love making of we

Besides

Does it look like, Daddy

Got a disease

Now, cum here, please….”

It was then

I’ve forgotten all he or I said

Blessed

To just be laying beside HIM in bed

My heart raced

As my arms embraced

His Blackened Beautiful anatomy

Consumed

By the fragrance in the room

Expelled from our bodies

I just laid back

Closed my eyes

Opened and looked at HIM
Opened my thighs…

Then

My, MY, MY…

I was in love

As if love had anything to do with this

With one more touch

With one more kiss

I didn’t even have to think twice

All my life

I had longed to be the wife

Of just such a man

In this moment of passion

I just knew it was HIM
So, I let HIM cum in….

 

 

 

 

I don’t know where this poem stops

Or how to begin

When I realized I wasn’t ever

Gonna see HIM again

I became a part time stalker

Doing the occasional drive by

I tried all the telephone numbers

Left for me

Without response or reply

I cruised all the familiar places

Looking for his face

’Til  realized I wasn’t ever gonna see HIM again

What I thought could be

My forever lover-bestfriend

Was just passion and a one night stand

Some may say

I got what I wished for

A pity I can’t ignore

The vividness of my memories

‘Cuz what I gave HIM was my love

My heart

My trust

So

Everyday I am reminded

Of the love making of us

The love making of we and  HIM inside of me…

Some may say

I got what I wished for

A pity I can’t ignore

The vividness of my memories

‘Cuz what I gave HIM was a gift

Wy love

My heart

My trust

And what he left me with was

HIV

Until death do us part

Until I rest in Peace

He will remain inside of me…

HIM…