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HIM
I don’t know where to start
Or how to begin
This tends to always happen
When I’m talking about….
HIM
He was so fine
As time
Standing still at midnight
A mind’s ease
Like a cool breeze
Oh, how I had long to hold him tight
This is spontaneously episodic
But before me stood
The complete package deal
And for real
I bought it
He hadn’t even touched me yet
Already my panties was wet
See, I was in love
As if love had anything to do with this
Desires to such his big lips
Imagining him riding high on my widened hips
Oh, how I wished
To kiss his big
Black
Thickness….
Of course there’d be some time pass
Before opening my thighs
But I could not dismiss
This being God answered prayer
I dare not let this cup pass me by
So, there we were
In the Garden of Eden
Naked and not ashamed
I couldn’t blame God
Cuz’ damn….
All I kept saying was
MAN oh, MAN…
Just looking so fine
As he took his time
His manly, yet gentle ways
My body behaved
To his perfect display of oral stimulation
He kissed
Both pair of my lips without any hesitation
Before his penetration
He did stroke my body so
With caresses portraying secrecy
The kind kept that only between lovers
Should know how to do that
In fact
I had never seen
The many things he did to me
Set the cage bird free to sing royal praise
This god that laid me down
I confessed my sins to HIM
Gave HIM my royal crown
See, I was in love
As if love had anything to do with this
He was a black beautifulness
I had never had before
Without a care
I was prepared to use
EVERY condom I had stored
In my nightstand drawer
But….
As I reached to put the condom on
He started to sing a different song…
“Aw baby-
We don’t need anything between us
See, with latex
That makes this just SEX
But
Without that glove
I
You
We
Experience all our Black Love
This is about us
Not lust
About you…
About me…
About the love making of we
Besides
Does it look like, Daddy
Got a disease
Now, cum here, please….”
It was then
I’ve forgotten all he or I said
Blessed
To just be laying beside HIM in bed
My heart raced
As my arms embraced
His Blackened Beautiful anatomy
Consumed
By the fragrance in the room
Expelled from our bodies
I just laid back
Closed my eyes
Opened and looked at HIM
Opened my thighs…
Then
My, MY, MY…
I was in love
As if love had anything to do with this
With one more touch
With one more kiss
I didn’t even have to think twice
All my life
I had longed to be the wife
Of just such a man
In this moment of passion
I just knew it was HIM
So, I let HIM cum in….
I don’t know where this poem stops
Or how to begin
When I realized I wasn’t ever
Gonna see HIM again
I became a part time stalker
Doing the occasional drive by
I tried all the telephone numbers
Left for me
Without response or reply
I cruised all the familiar places
Looking for his face
’Til realized I wasn’t ever gonna see HIM again
What I thought could be
My forever lover-bestfriend
Was just passion and a one night stand
Some may say
I got what I wished for
A pity I can’t ignore
The vividness of my memories
‘Cuz what I gave HIM was my love
My heart
My trust
So
Everyday I am reminded
Of the love making of us
The love making of we and HIM inside of me…
Some may say
I got what I wished for
A pity I can’t ignore
The vividness of my memories
‘Cuz what I gave HIM was a gift
Wy love
My heart
My trust
And what he left me with was
HIV
Until death do us part
Until I rest in Peace
He will remain inside of me…
HIM…
