10400
am i fully convinced
about not having regrets?
so many years in debt
insecure spouse
marriage jailhouse
interfeering devil tampering
with my motivation level
low as it ever been
my life feels at a deadend
my wife
lover and friend?
Is it doubt?
I feel alone
constant depression zones
it seems no exit out
habitual reposessions
in a never ending state
of recession
it seems
I only wish the American Dream
time is moving fast
I wish I can rewind
back into past
and delete
its partly blame
my spirit feel weak
my future looks bleek
its dark in the present
and irresponsible
adolescents
surrounds me
it somewhat
grounds me
my inlaws are the
greater percentage of
the fraction
my wife remains
timid
with no actions
she wont break the mold
I had fire desires
now all hopes are cold
tired of the double roll
wasnt for love
than I would
leave
still in hopes for change
chasing the
American Dream
