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The question I have is are you deeply in love? I mean the kind of love that makes other people jealous, the worlds entire essence is that they want to be you. They recognize a bond that is shared between you and your lover and they want to be a part of that scene.
Do you protect your mate against all defenders including the weakesses in your heart. Are you forever faithful. Do you know that if it does not work out you will be heartbroken but you pursue it anyway. Are you afraid of being afraid of losing the love you have.
You are a part of this world but you cannot see yourself in this world without that special someone. You knew that at some point in time that you would harness a deep love and find that someone that you could make a connection with.
I think at some point I have felt my nerves crumble under the weight of trying to make someone happy. Hindsight tells me that maybe I should not have done that. Why sacrifice the world for someone when they would gladly sacrifice you in a heartbeat.
I know this poem took a turn but it is definitely the way I am feeling. I wanted more than I got but I was expecting too much from a person that could not give it to me. I was lucky to survive and now I need to start building something for myself. I love someone more now than I ever did and that is myself.
Lesson learned. Soul yearned and burned. Phoenix rose and now planting a garden.
