Rant 2 (Numb)

I’ve become so numb/

Dumb/

To reality/

Life just flying by/

A blur/

Not knowing when one thing ends and another starts up/

I was born/

Then grown/

With just a hiccup/

Over a quarter of a century/

And all I have is constant issues centering me/

Attempting to hinder me/

Sometimes they win a round or two/

Through and through/

But in the end I am victorious/

Glorious/

But still/ I’ve become so numb/

Maybe that’s how I win/

Because its become harder to hurt me/

Harder to affect me Harder for me to care/

Harder for me to be there/

In the same room with anything that matters/

Emotions I scatter/

Accidentally/

On purpose/

Emotions to me/

Is synonymous with curses/

The worst ish/

That just flourish/

And not in a good way/

Swimming in an emotionless bay/

And I’ve become so numb/

And surrendered/

Emotionally succumb Over it/

Everything/ Drained/

Strained/ Detained/

In my own mind/

Dismissed/

Faceless/

By choice/

On accident/

And it’s adequate/

I’m numb/