Victory

I failed so many times 

So I need to be prepared to fail again

There's no accolades or gold around my grandmother's living room I never had a chance to win

Either I wasn't focused enough

Or I became to soft when life got tough

My anxiety won't let me see this through

I'm afraid to be afraid

And being afraid is what I do

I rather take a perc ,before I take a risk

Like I said before I never won sh!t

But now I feel something different,  It feels like victory

So good I can taste it

And take it and face that

To the point after I win this time

It ain't no going back