If I survive this crisis…
If I survive this crisis
I’ll know and do better next time
Give up my self righteousness and vices
Pay down my debit and save every damn dime!
As the time passes, months feel like days
My path was once so certain, now it feels like a maze
Cognizant of my responsibilities, yet I fail almost every time
To prepare, plan, and make forward progress
On the gridiron of life, I lost thousands of yards behind scrimmage line!
To clear today’s hurdles and roadblocks
I must be as ruthless as a crocodile and as cunning as a fox!
As tomorrow’s obstacles mutate, we no longer have immunity
Even if I survive, what about others in our community?
The unhoused, sick, shut in elders, and impoverished youth?
Who don’t have the luxuries of time, money, and power learn the truth
That life is a short but... |
Move mountains
Mountains of grief, mountains of debt
Be it lack of belief, or lack of respect
Challenging heights, seen and unseen
As you climb higher, both nightmares and dreams
Map trails to your rubicon
Fear can program or constrict life like a python
The point of no return is just a man made fallacy
Hindsight down your mountain’s view is a 20/20 reality
Impossible is nothing, see we live miracles each day
We can move mountains only if we believe and say
Hope springs eternal like fountains
Simply remove doubt and you too can move mountains
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I was a victim of fraud, but look at Gwad!
25 years ago… I lived in Japan
Just became a married man
An officer in the Navy in Yokosuka, but I was still quite poor
There was no WiFi at sea back then then, so I had to wait until we got back on shore
An error on a travel claim, cause me to sleep…
In a rack on the ship for a whole year, so all that I could ever keep
Was about $200 each month from my Ensign pay after taxes
So I basically served in the Navy, for free, back half a lifetime ago!
I protested, filled out paper work and exceptions, waited in lines for weeks, demanded explanations, and each time was still told no!
I had no proof of how (or why) I lost a year of my pay
I believe that I was a victim of fraud to this day
But I survived, and eventually started making and saving my money
Those dark clouds retreated and my outlook and perspective became more sunn... |
diaspora zombies
Before racism, religion, and debt
The world would change and long live to regret
Dozens of deadly and incurable sins
Crisis caused by vices, war, drugs, sex and gin
Eggs break
We learn, but make even more mistakes!
Knowledge conquered by morally bankrupt cunning snakes
Selling afterlife reservations
Disguised as spiritual manifestations
The melanin and culturally deficient ‘global minority’ use greed and manipulation
To spread lies and weapons like a plague
Whiteness, land ownership, and money is stupid and man made!
Courtrooms, credit scores, and zip codes limit hope
Life, liberty and pursuit of happiness is just a cruel joke for us brown folk!
Assimilated aliens so far away, our home feels like another planet, not a continent
Neither African or American, blood infected with our captors curs... |
Tell them about me?
Sometimes I writes poems to time travel
Brainstorm, dabble, peel back the layers and unravel
5am at the airport reading and writing to myself
About big and little things, famine in Darfur, my mental health
Jokes, dreams, and history, maybe one day my daughter will read it
Faults of hers that I share, yet still criticize more than I should - so be it
Please do as I say, not as I may be
I see the little girl that I once knew, and a young woman before me
Light years ahead of me, in wit and creativity
With the eyes and grin of her mother, so lucky are we
Days seem like hours, leaves on your family tree
I just read a poem that I wrote about you when you were just three
I mused about you and your family living in the next century!... |
Am I just a hair wiser?
Gray hairs are...
Like grains of sand falling in a hourglass
When they appear
Marking the passage of time
Predictable, yet surprising
Never quite sure where they will appear
Or even when they will show up
Like some type of 'Body Bingo', and my face is the ‘Free Space’
They don’t lay down or blend in, do they?
No, the stick out, no matter mustache, eyebrow, inner nose, or outer ear
‘Bingo’! I got five in a row!
It was not there yesterday - B12
Or even this morning! - I17
Look at this one, it’s half brown and half grey - N33
Rolling down a pile of other gray hairs - G47
Proof that another moment has passed - O55!
And I have lived…
Taken up space
Created, loved, praised, learned, listened, read, laughed
And perhaps, now am I just... |
Monopoly
Turns out those old American dreams
Were just nightmares, it seems
Strange what ‘democracy’ brings
To our huddles masses
Races, parties, and classes
Just like the game of Monopoly, do you recall?
Rolls of the dice and that one player who manages to own it all!
The utilities, railroads, properties, and apartments, while your money always gets spent
On jail, fines, insurance, repairs, and expensive rent!
Hoping to just pass ‘go’, avoid taxes, trade or make another deal
But you're never in control, can’t even enjoy the game, because it all just feels so real!
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Why all the angst and regret?
Reality is nonsense
It feels like January 6th
But somehow we’re all Mike Pence!
But they ain’t storming the capital (no, no)
The government and media are spewing lies instead of reporting what’s factual…
Firing federal workers and teachers?
Fans in the stands threatening athletes from the bleachers?
'Shut up and dribble,' but you call yourselves fans?
You called him a (again), so he rushed up into the stands!
You 5’8” dummy, he’s a foot taller than you!
Your neck’s in his hands and you can’t breathe, so now what you gonna do?
We're in the age, when misplaced rage just might get your a$$ kicked!
All that money and security is just an illusion, my conclusion, just don’t be a !
Why in the hell are y’all so upset? (Anyway)
Your ancestors weren&rs... |
Life.time.water.waves.sand.one
Notice… how time moves in waves
Like water at the beach
Slow, until the sand shifts
That soothing spritz
Tickles your feet sink as the water retreats
As it always has done
You are already one
With both the water and the sand
Understand?
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appreciate all of the lessons yet to be learned
The mistakes that you make today may seem heavy
But when you take time to relax and are ready
To understand the ways that this lesson will assist
Your future perspective, I guarantee that you won’t want to miss
The chance to appreciate all of the lessons yet to be learned
Do what I say, not what I do, your current error is no reason for concern
You like me, tend to overthink things and are way too hard on yourself
I hope this wisdom that I’m sharing with you today will be beneficial toward your heath
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