I worked for a rich white woman who was very wealthy the kinda fortune folk's called old money when I found out she had a pilot license and flew her own plane I was floored one day we had a conversation about me always asking for an advance I always needed because I was struggling financially when I got paid every dollar I made was already spoken for I always asked myself "what are you working for and it's not rhetorical that day I got a raise a nice raise I must add
but it still wasn't enough and guess what? that's right I asked for another advance and another like a addict with a bad habit and I definitely was not on drugs
I never was materialistic or fascinated by name brands I just wanted to make a good living for myself one day after work the rich lady pulled me to the side and said "no more advances" I like to have died right there on the spot on the bus ride from one side of town to the next I started talking to myself "she's rich she got it all she don't get me" curiosity got a hold of me I had to know why she decided to stop helping me so I asked why can't I get anymore advances she said because I'm not helping you
I heard "I'm not helping you" but what she meant was it's not helping me.
The white woman who told me that also said I might think she has everything but I have something more valuable??? It took some time to figure out what she meant by that something told me don't ask when I grasped I never had a need for another advance

