The Painful Chapter

Reserved Sovereignty

"Asking" when does asking
collapse into begging

  It happens when the hand
stays out too long 

 Waiting for a drop of water
to fall into the palm

Drawn from a well that's been
dry so long

 I ask my mother a simple question
formulated from a natural need

 I don't go any farther than the 
act of asking

I do not step across the border

 Where a request becomes a plea

 Mama became good at fixin'
broken promises of my father 

 Mending the tears inside me

 refusing to sacrifice my dignity

I usually leave the question on the floor

I turn away before it has the chance
to drop me to my knees

For I only give my God my please
 

The Painful Chapter

Walk Away

answers never came in spoken words in the silence of a room plans were delayed and calls went unheard shadows formed where trees should bloom seasons begging skies to change the current weather of ones mind the fog cleared from these eyes to see what was left behind When the sky is no longer blue When finally you know the truth the only thing left to do is reclaim the days of ones youth no final fight no grand goodnight no explanation left behind to say goodbye

Resolution & Revelation

Sometimes you have to write down
    your frustrations instead of 
    filling out a complaint form. 

A Stranger To The Familiar

You can return to 
    where you started
    without being the 
    same person who left.

I'm Gonna Need You (08032026)

one day I'm gonna need you to hold my hand one day I'm gonna need you to help me stand I'm gonna need you to help me do all the things I done for myself without no one's help one day I'm gonna need you to hold my hand one day I'm gonna need you to help me stand I'm gonna need you to help me do all the things I done for myself without no one's help one day I'm gonna need you to answer the phone one day I'm gonna need you to respond to the text I'm gonna need you to do a wellness check one day I'm gonna need you to come through I'm gonna need you to stop by but you won't show up for me you won't lift me up you won't answer the phone you won't check on me you won't respond to the text you won't help me do all the things I once did for myself without help from no one else

TIW 7/31/26

" Its a set up to up set you if you get up set it wins."

Stream of Consciousness

you taught me how to survive you keep teaching me how to get by how can I lose when I know how to win when I switched from pencil to pen I made mistakes I couldn't erase you told me to do it over again I got frustrated I really did hate it you taught me how to behave you told me to make the grades I studied hard to make you proud of me you told me you would be proud of me degree or no degree as long as I achieve you told me to prosper before I knew the meaning of the word I looked it up wrote it down impressed the meaning in my mind you told me to draw a line through impossible you wanted me to believe it's possible you told me don't sit around waiting for opportunity to knock on the door you told me to get up go out and get what's mine you told me to name it you told me to claim it you told me I had to be invested you taught me how to manifest it you taught me alot of lessons some I still remember some I forgot no matter what I can't say I didn't have someone in my life who want...

TIW 7/29/26

TIW 7/29/26