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life

Feeling like the end is near
The most fear I’ve ever felt
Built up in the pit of my gut
Just my luck
You’re no longer here to tuck 
In my insecurities 
Somehow you ended up my security blanket
When the world got cold and I couldn’t take it 
I used you to warm my existence
So I could deal with the nonsense
That wanted me stagnant, unconscious
A kiss on the cheek
Somehow brought back the man in me 
I can’t explain it 
Staring at the ceiling 
Trying to recapture that feeling 
The realization of losing you is damaging 
Not sure how I’m managing 
To fight back these tears 
Fend off these fears
Some men play macho 
Head honcho
Lose love 
Then regroup pronto
I’d rather not
Especially when I know what I got
Knew what I had
Nothing more to do but feel mad
Taking trips back to our past 
Trying to make it last
A bit longer
Reliving situations only seem to make my wrongs wronger
My rights don’t seem as right as I’d like 
Or I thought they were when I praised them 
I was just being the man I always should have been
I could of been that man if I stayed true within
It’s nothing to write home about 
I can see why you had doubt’s
But I guess when you’re living wrong
You hold on to everything and anything 
That helps you sleep in peace at night 
sh*t is crazy right 
Here I am praising the good I thought I was 
When my actions showed no love