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Mixed emotions run through my head
thought after thought while I'm in bed.
Do I follow my heart or listen to my head
do I want to smile or feel nothing, just dead.
I love him so much he will never understand
to look in his eyes to hold his hand.
There's one sad truth in life I found
the one you love will never come around.
I try to stay positive and see the bright light
but all I see is the dark, a cold lonely night.
So I sit in my room
with a sense of constant gloom.
Night after night I ponder the ways
staring out the window in a complete gaze.
And I say to the stars and the night sky...
"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul."
