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It's been said, let the one you love go if he returns to me, then it's meant to be.
Sadly, I have setteled on the feeling he will not return, not because he does not care but because he can't, all the spit fire words up until this point were just his tragic rant.
I don't believe a word he spoke was true or even was right,
maybe one day he will prove me wrong...maybe, he just might.
Wishful thinking on my part, but he knows hes had my heart from the very start.
But he also has the breath caught in my lungs, each bone in my spine, each bone in my body, every muscle aches and surges with him.
I guess he will always have more, he has everything that keeps me alive, its always just been a waiting game of when he would arrive.
There's nothing more beautiful in this world to me then knowing he is out there, that he does exist, it's just time for me to bite my tounge, close my eyes and to just resist.
Love letters are just this, words put down on paper from the deepest parts of your soul, they have more passion and yet they take their toll.
There's no one else in this world who causes me to write like this, my words have more meaning then a touch or simple kiss.
Today my heart is heavy, and even a little sad knowing all that's left is to say, " Forever you're my always, until my dieing day."
~ This is my moment, you win.~
