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MOMMY’S LITTLE ANGEL
You were loved from the moment of conception is the one thing I want you to know and my heart was filled with so much joy as you continued to grow.
I wrapped my arms around my changing body in a warm embrace counting down the months when I would finally see your face.
No one got to feel my love for you as the beat of your heart matched mines, while I dreamed about all the cute baby clothes I would find.
I was so happy to have you growing inside of me even with the midnight runs to get food from my favorite place. Your sister enjoyed this as much as I did while we both stayed up to feed our face.
No one got to really share the bond that was built from day one between you and I and I can never explain it in words no matter how much I try.
I celebrated finding out that I was going to have a son even though I love your sister’s dearly I was overjoyed because I finally got one.
Little boys are rare in our family I told the doctor in an excited breath knowing that with three older sisters they were going to spoil you to death.
When my water broke early I didn’t panic because I had been through this before, your baby sister is living proof of god’s grace because he knows what you can handle and will never give you more.
I watched you take your last breath while my heart was breaking because there was nothing that I could do. This is the kind of pain I would never want anyone to go through.
God knew that you were too good for this world so he decided to keep you near. I know he has you wrapped in his loving embrace even though I really wanted you here.
I think about you all the time and imagine what you would grow up to be while I try to live life while wondering why you were taken from me.
Sometimes I wake up crying because I have dreams of you and your dad playing basketball games, with him being so proud to have a son like you to carry on his name.
Even though my arms have been physically empty I forever hold you in my heart knowing that when god calls me home from that moment on, we will never be apart.
So rest my little angel while I continue to live through god’s plan and always know that mommy loves you, with all my heart until we see each other again.
By R L Chemistry
