Therapy Sessions 1

Ms. B-Side

You were
Unappreciated
Overlooked
A hidden gem
But I loved you
Upon first listen
I recite you every day
Memorizing my favorite lyric
I’ve found new life
Inside the rhythm of your groove.

Closure

When there’s more you need to say
But understand words won’t make a difference
When silence is safer than the act of forgiveness
When questions are answered
And closure is in the works
But memories remain and love still lurks
In every passing thought
In the prayers I pray
When I rest my eyes
Before I start each day
Closure,
Nothing more than the illusion of letting go
In denial of the fact the heart latches on
To your voice
To my feelings
The words of our song
To the idea the love that left me
Still can do no wrong

Perfect Comparison

You entered my life
At a time I felt most alive
The opposite of my worldly surroundings
I tethered our connection
To the death of summer leaves
There was beauty in our fall
Optimism to start our season
I fell for you for this very reason
If memory serves me correct
You remained stained by summers glow
So astonished by your hue
I painted my world with you
You breathe new life
Into everything I saw
Brush strokes so broad
I found my love cornered
Even then I still admired you
So with this weather change
I remember your name
I’ll embrace passionate reds
That defiantly cling to dying trees
I welcome the cold lonely breeze
That always seems to want my company
I’ll watch our sunset
Then brace myself for your darkness
And I’ll still desire you
I’ll always admire you

Perfect Comparison

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Commitment & Regrets

Commitment

I want her
In ways
I’m afraid
To admit

Regrets

I’ve dialed her number
countless times
since the night
we last spoke,
so much for
letting
go.

Foolish pride
ended apologies
before sorry left my throat.
Losing her, a tremendous regret
A realization she will never know.

Monogamy

The end goal.
The quest to find
A mind
Which complements
Mine.
Commitment
To the body.
Allegiance
To the soul.
Dedicated
To the idea of us
Trust, forgiveness
And acceptance.
The ultimate leap of faith.
Lifetime allies
Full-time lovers.
Honestly, my eyes
May always wander.
The senses may periodically
Wonder what lurks
In the unknown.
If love is real
Lust will lose
It’s appeal.
Hopefully,
The touch of one
Is all I will feel.
That leap of faith.
What can heal
May also kill.
All’s fair in life & love
Heartbreak
Is just part of the deal.

Colors in the Fall

Brown hues
Infuse life
Evergreens 
Transitioning
Into descending rust
Mellow yellows
Cool blues
An atmosphere to match
Sunsets paint by day
Grays cool the night
Beauty amongst
Summers death
Midday reds and
Sunburnt cascading leaves

Poparatzi*

I stray away from
Camera flashes
My memory
Serves it’s purpose
Living in a moment
Trumps the perfect picture
Documenting every step
Obstructs my view
My mentals produce
Panoramas
I don’t need proof
To remember I was with you
Told her put the camera
Down, let me love you
Now

9/29

Figured I’d be closer
To my hopes and dreams
To the favors I asked of God
While on bended knee
Speaking wants into existence
While ignoring my every need
Anticipating the harvest
Of future blessings
Without planting a single seed

Closure

When there’s more you need to say
But understand words won’t make a difference
When silence is safer than the act of forgiveness
When the questions are answered and closure is in the works
But the memories remain and love still lurks
In every passing thought
In the prayers I pray
When I rest my eyes
Before I start each day
Closure,
Nothing more than the illusion of letting go
In denial of the fact the heart latches on
To your voice
To my feelings
The words of our song
To the idea the love that left me
Still can do no wrong