Once upon love

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I heard so many goodbyes, many nights layin there wiping tears from my eyes. Im told to choose my guys wise n its my fault if i dont pay attention to the deceit in their eyes. Kind words, love actions and false hopes, starting to believe that love is a joke n i dont hope that i find the one. I jus wait cause i know the games they play and a toy, im not one. Been patient, understanding and all the while anxious cant blame myself for desiring the sensation but falling to temptation, i know i gotta do better and for my sake I try. However im forever improving n improvising and realizing that my heart is icy but im still trying. I have deeper issues that had been rising to the surface no im not perfect. Only share my love and life with those who deserve it. Is it worth it to put my heart and all in the mist cause of bliss n a kiss i miss just to end up getting dissed. "Dismissed!", i told love and its a cold season even tho flowers blooming, flipflops popping n im in the air conditioning. How many times can a fool learn the same lesson. Give it a rest and when its worth it, ill dive off into it but even though i try, look in my eyes and see they are all cried out. Tired of shouting n I'm too old to pout. Been down this road n if this is what love is about. Its hard for me so i guess ill wait this one out.