(circa approximately sometine during latter half of 2012).
Communication per appeal to me no reason to became a saint like mark or Paul
But, a surge to express myself, which could be suppressed or I could fore stall
Spurs me to risk breaking out of mine own emotionally air tight invisible wall.
All to often in the past, an opportunity (in this context of an interpersonal/social nature) slipped away for lack of bravado to act the fool and rush in where angels fear to tread!
No need for me to elaborate disappointment in keeping in check a whim to introduce myself to a lass whose aura, charisma, and persona quickened my heartbeat.
A presumption that ye to experienced infatuation, and perhaps involved with a significant other.
Tis less important to ferret out any personal information, but dare to avoid depriving myself of sharing affinity for you.
Also unwise to expect any tangible outcome!
Rather than ask any comparable exchange of interest, the motive to email stoked by pang to feel free from regret in the future.
So how you respond (thus far no explicit non-verbal cues discerned for any objection) figures less than the bliss to share an emotion.
A minor psychological/psychic tug of war ensures within myself, yet to live with enjoyment incorporates challenging this quiet natured/reserved chap to overcome any reasonable fear to befriend a lovely gal - you.
Sometimes during quiet moments, a swirl of edifying thoughts pertaining to ye find me pleasantly uplifted.
Understandable to censor any inappropriate feelings.
The most forthright tingling thought beckons.
Although assigned to shana (who appears to enjoy being with you), I too would be delighted in a social outing with thee.
Rather than assail your employment email address and/or voice mail with an excess of these unstoppable sensations to befriend you (which worse case fallout could affect longevity at central), this papa felt unable to rein back the incessant attractive he finds toward thee.
He will bar himself from divulging anything beyond this general genuine yearning i.e. to go out with you predicated on NO GREAT EXPECTATIONS, but merely the delight of enjoying your company.
Matthew now reckons with himself in this marriage bereft of mutual compatibility.
Postscript: the lack of any obvious displeasure NOT concluded as affinity. Age taught me wisdom of watching for subtle social cues.
