Soldier at war...Soldier at home too

Hard to sleep. Stay up at all hours of the night. the nightmares are still there. Was a soldier of war, now a cillivian. Was happy to be home but sad many of friends didnt make it back. Hard to adjust to the civilivan lifestyle. Im not the same I was before I left. The war changed alot in me. I might be the same outside but inside im not. Waking up in sweat. Thinking im under attack. Mom notices the changes in me. She does her best. Sometimes I just find myself sitting on the floor in the corner. Or outside walking around the city. The war's over but theres still a war at home for this soldier, everyday the nightmares begins to go away. less sweat in bed, less times of me roaming the city. More time with my family. Less times of me being sad. Til then ima keep praying for a better day.