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I'm crying for help
By pretending to be strong
Going on with my life
As if nothing had happened
I just ignore everything
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of MY mind
I hardly dream
I just wish
Someone would help me
Please help me
Everyday I go to work
I'm begging for mercy
Everyday I budget
I'm begging for mercy
Everyday I contribute
I'm begging for mercy
While carrying the load
Putting pressure on my back
I begin to feel fatigue
Beaten, worn, and used
Using my smile as a distraction
I close my eyes
Praying it would stop
Praying it would finish
Praying that it would all just disappear
Vanish into thin air
The drinking, the drugs, the partying
The drama, the struggle, the confusion
The people, the noise, the voices
Inside my ear
Inside my head
Whispering mixed signals
No matter how far I run
I can't escape the voices
No place to hide
No sense of security
No help whatsoever
I feel so alone
I feel so isolated
No one understands
No one cares
So why should I?
I don't care about myself anymore
I don't treat myself well at all
I'm falling apart
Everything is my fault
Everyone blames me
My backbone is officially broken
I can't carry anymore
My strength is gone
So is my feelings
Along with my sanity
I can't breathe
It's too late
I'm dead
