Dead Soul Walking

I'm crying for help

By pretending to be strong

Going on with my life

As if nothing had happened

I just ignore everything

Out of sight

Out of mind

Out of MY mind

I hardly dream

I just wish

Someone would help me

Please help me

Everyday I go to work

I'm begging for mercy

Everyday I budget

I'm begging for mercy

Everyday I contribute

I'm begging for mercy

While carrying the load

Putting pressure on my back

I begin to feel fatigue

Beaten, worn, and used

Using my smile as a distraction

I close my eyes

Praying it would stop

Praying it would finish

Praying that it would all just disappear

Vanish into thin air

The drinking, the drugs, the partying

The drama, the struggle, the confusion

The people, the noise, the voices

Inside my ear

Inside my head

Whispering mixed signals

No matter how far I run

I can't escape the voices

No place to hide

No sense of security

No help whatsoever

I feel so alone

I feel so isolated

No one understands

No one cares

So why should I?

I don't care about myself anymore

I don't treat myself well at all

I'm falling apart

Everything is my fault

Everyone blames me

My backbone is officially broken

I can't carry anymore

My strength is gone

So is my feelings

Along with my sanity

I can't breathe

It's too late

I'm dead