Life

Life has finally brought me to my knees every time I try to do better something or someone knocks me my mother don't care, daddy never been there, auntie dead, brother has lost his mind, cousins kick me from behind I feel so blind even though the trauma is happening in front of my eyes tell me why am I breaking down tears cloudings my thoughts everyone says it will get better I know it's lies because since I was born there's been a chip on my shoulder that until every year I got older my life would get colder everyone around hurting me and I'm looking for who is next to cut me deep, I don't trust know one with my feelings so I have thoughts thrown in the back of my head because these people twist the things that you said and use it against you like a weapon if I fell off the earth today everyone would swear they love and miss me but where was you at when I needed you to care for me mentally and physically somewhere talking down on my like I having seen all that I need I have been homeless beat parentless deceit hurt with grief loss of the most important person to me still haven't fully grieve just tossed it with the rest of my problems no one can solve them stop stepping on me let me be I give everyone a clear slate I have nothing to say rude hart or to critical to you except don't talk about or down to me find a new hobby like a clue because your hurting someone who doesn't want to hurt or be hurt by you life